I used to think I had insomnia. Then I discovered that whenever I couldn’t/wouldn’t sleep, I was just procrastinating. Not procrastinating going to sleep, but avoiding whatever was going on the next day. The theory is this: If I don’t go to sleep, then I won’t have to wake up in the morning. It will never be tomorrow. The night just goes on and on!
Yeah, that worked really well for me.
And I’m doing it now. Whee.
I love to read your writing! You have a great sense of humor and a real gift with words….also, I think I hear a bit of myself in what you said.